i miss people

not that I don't my kids.

but i just realized today that i officially just miss people.

i know that sounds silly.

i was talking to the worker in claire's boutique today.  the kids and i were out doing a little wandering and admiring.  i told the manager that we were just out having some fun, and then i said it out loud, "i just miss people."  she laughed and said that's exactly why she could never stay at home.  she loves her kids, but being around them 24-7 would drive her crazy.  i guess when i think of it, i'd be crazy like that too, but GOD is showing me a new way to enjoy life now.

here's a shocker: people need people!

i know i've thought about it a lot lately.  i love this season i'm in.  i'm writing through it, partly to stay sane, and partly to process, and partly just to connect with anyone who may read.  connecting is so vital to life.  writing makes me feel like i can use it in ways to connect with people, in a way i may not ever connect in any other way.  connecting: it gives us life to touch lives with others.

working in the home, my kids are my world. i love spending time with them.  i was watching sadie today at the park, how she lit up when she spotted her sibling just a few feet away, climbing the rock climbing wall; she jogged over to see him.  it just made my heart light to see her enjoying simplicity.  i wouldn't trade this time for anything.  i just have to be a little more creative and intentional about connecting with people.  i love that GOD is using this time in my life to remind me how beautiful HIS people are. and by people i even mean people in general, everybody!  how special of a creation we are, above all other creation.  how unique of beings we are.  and the power that is put in us to bring about HIS kingdom on earth, spreading love and truth everywhere we go.  it's amazing.  and i am learning all this with the lesson of the "without" because i feel so held back and not in connection with many people at all in the present circumstances, and yet when i get a chance i think i might just explode!

i pray i can keep pressing through this difficult, messy and glorious path i am on, glean whatever i can that will help me spread HIS good news wherever i go whenever i can.  i want to enjoy the journey and not just the destination, as they say.  the grass is definitely greener here when you stop and look.  i have so much to be thankful for.